I cry "stay with me till i fall asleep. Stay with meeee! Stay with me till i fall asleep! TILL I FALL ASLEEP!!!"
Just now realizing that I have been used by so many guys that claim to be so into me for how gorgeous and smart and sweet I am........I feel like I should block every guy off but the ones I would kill to be with dont want me.....
"Do you hear that love? their playing our song!"
I want to take back all of my past and cut out all the heart break and tears I've cried over the boys that have fucked me over. I can't believe I let them get to me and make me so happy for such a short time and be so romantic in the simple act of trying to sleep with me...... I can't believe I gave in so easy! What the hell is wrong with me.?! I feel like there is a stitch in me for every guy that fucked me over....
I've went back to the same guy.....Because of my unwillingly love for him tells me it'll all be different. But everytime it's the same! He sweet talks me till he gets what he wants. Slipping the word "love" at the end of everything, seeing if it enhances his chances...and I fall for it every time! I've been in love with you since 7th grade and I'm a sophmore now in highschool and the word love still kills me when I hear it and say it back to you... >.< I want to give up and tell you to shut the fuck up. To stop lieing to me and be with me. You said you wanted to give me "stability" like no one else has succeeded at...But you have a girlfriend and she's all over you...and the one guy I really liked and wanted to stay with for awhile left because of a deep love burning at his heart for another girl....
I wanna cut so hard that the blood doesnt stop coming but the blade isnt enough of a rush for me. The destraction only lasts a few minutes then its back to being alone...... Take a blade to my throat?! I promise I wont tell you to stop!
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