I just hate how this horrible world has never in a million year worked in anyone's favor! I just want to be normal...And even though my therapist is helping me get closer to that, I don't every thing I'll come close to it...Not even this god every living Christian speaks of, can help this worthless life of mine! I'm more work than I'm even worth.....I don't know how to even enter how miserable I am...My mother is always busy, with her Collage and then her full-time work. How can I compete with the nature of trying to survive in this messed up economy?! I want to have my childhood that I was never able to experience, and now that it has gone by, my young adult hood is heading down the same path and I don't like it! My step father was the only person I didn't like when I was younger. I never really liked the thought of him being in my life, and he was never my favorite person to see. Maybe last year I finally got to like being around him and we finally, in my life span, got along and found out that we had stuff in common....It was so perfect...My uncle, Jake, He's a steaming alcoholic...he never knows when to be quiet or just leave some people alone...I just don't know what to do anymore...I don't even have friends anymore, I shut everyone out, I break up with people for no reason at all. I just don't want this life anymore.........People care about me, and i can never return the favor...I'm so sorry...