Is it possible to just.....stop?

Could it be? Could the day the world has dreaded come and smacked me in the face? Has the feelings seized to grow and flown in a totally different direction?! Am I seeing this black and white print right or has these eyes of mine gone blind to the way it used to be?
Oh shit...
Oh good god that people believe in since the world had suddenly began because they needed so desperately to blame all their problems on....oh shit.....
I think its true. This feeling inside. The world has suddenly come crashing down and kicked me in the stomach....I don't see him as a lover, love maker or boyfriend....I see him as a best friend. How can i tell him? How would he take it? How will I take this? Oh shit.....</3