Sometimes it feels like I'm in a dream when I'm listening to the problems of other. They never seem so horrible once I try and think about what they would do if those people could try and take a walk in my skin. Embrace the so called love that this family circulates....The biggest problem right now is.....I don't feel like there is anything wrong anymore...
My mind isn't crowded like some wifi hot spot in the desert......
I just don't understand how I could drop someone that I loved with all my heart could possibly clear my head.
Maybe I just wasn't ready for it....Did I rush?! Did i not think about it, and get reeled in....with all the sweet talking and sayings?!
How could I of left my barrier and have someone that ended up loving me enter and not even hearing my warning of my horrible past of future planning scares me......
Why doesn't anyone listen to me?!
I know myself better than anyone in this world. I want to be normal.
Not having to blog my problems out and every time someone likes me and hears that I'm blogging, they want to read it....what could i possibly be saying that they need to know?!?
Can this world just show me up and let me be alone forever?!?!?!
Please, oh please, I just feel like giving up on so much in this life. I don't wanna be remembered and be lied about anymore. Being constantly known as the ex-girlfriend that they ended up sleeping with and now they don't give a shit because I was just another piece of ass! God, if you truly are real..........KILL ME NOW!!!!
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