Lets see how this is all going to go down....
oob#1: This hate bond between my parents have gotten stronger. Unlike a rope being pulled. The more you pull on it, the more it strains to stay in one piece...Yeah, that's the exact opposite of them. The more they pull the more they break apart. It seems like my step father wants it all to break. Catch my mom screwing up or something. But, its different then other parents in my eyes. Usually, the parents don't want their kids to see how fucked up their relationship is. But here, and now, it's like they don't give a shit about me, like it's bad enough I have to hear about it because he is too scared to do it in person, he waits till he is on the road to get angry and talk to my mother about it. Don't real men stand up and do it face to face? I guess I don't fully understand how it feels to be married or in a relationship that long. Mine usually end at 3 months.....I think i'm like my mom......unbearable to be around for a long period of time.
oob#2: The people at CVS keep giving me the medication I don't need more of! GRRRRRR!!!!
oob#3: I'm an aunt now.....2.14.2013 Jayden Emmanuel Elijah Epps 5:45pm 6lbs, 10oz. Greenville Memorial Hospital. Katie + Emmanuel Epps <3
oob#4: This search, for a house.. It's unbearable also. I can't stand the long hours, back breaking reading on webpages and such for houses or apartments. It's like there is no way out to this house. It's crazy how much I've grown to hate it.....I grew up in this house. SO much has happened here, I just hate all the memories that haunt me night after night. Ever since I found out that we were leaving, it's like revenge of the nightmares. Then, I have nightmares of my nightmares.
AM I GOING CRAZY?!?! HELP ME!
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