I dont know how.

I usually don't have a problem. But this time, I feel so repulsed. I can't wrap my head around it. I don't want to think about it. Why would someone claim they love me so much then stop talking to me for so long?! Why would the person that supposedly loves me so much just leave me hanging like a dead limb?? For awhile I just thought it was a test, to see if I had the patients. To see if I was capable of the silence...to see if I could last...I failed. I lash out. I cry. I look through pictures and rack my brain for memories.
I hate tests....