Tonight was real.....

I thought it was just a dream.
Something that could be this perfect couldn't happen to me.
I feel like the world may be giving me a break! 
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We meet online....stupid but it was the best decision ever now.
We realized we were perfect for each other but as soon as things started to get good you left.
Sailed a ship that fled across the states.
I was determined that we would make it but the path was becoming over grown and obstacles were growing in the way.
I was scared and we've split in two many times.
But, we realized we were meant for each other.
Nothing in this world could keep us apart.
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I wanted since November to see you and tonight it has finally happened!
I could never be so happy with my life.
I love you William.
Our little family is what I have been living for.
Waiting for you and I to become one again was worth all the time it took.
I just wish tonight didn't end.
I just wish there was more to remember and more to see.
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I am in love with you and only you baby.


With Love,
Kristy and William Lee Holt

After Tonight

I don't know what to think right now. The other night is stuck in my head. Crashing against the walls of my skull. My heart was beating like a hammer on a nail head. It was the most happiness I have EVER felt in my whole life. I have spent now 5 years trying to show you I can give you so much more than anyone in this city, state, country and world could give you. I have been trying and the only thing I can think of was sunday night. It was perfect. My heart was beating against yours and it just felt so right and I know you saw it in my eyes. It's there everytime you touch me. Even just my hand around your arm riding in the car i felt complete.
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Everytime I realized you saw that I could be the best you ever could have you turn around and wrap your arm around anothers shoulder. Like youre afraid of happiness. You long for the heart break and I have been there every time a girl broke your heart. You have been there for me also.
I have never regret you and if you do, i dont know what I'll do. I cant help what I feel and this feeling will never go. It's like another scare on my pathetic little wrist.
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Sometimes, I wish i could forget all about this world that I have made up based around you. It kills me knowing that it will always swim around in my mind and never find its way out to the open ocean of the real world.
If you leave, there really isnt any reason to go on. I just dont want a world without that love i see in your eyes and in the words you say..
Maybe its just me begging for you to say theses things and you give them, and its probably true....
I just wish we can see past it...............................




With love,
Kristy Phillips