The Fire, It Roars

I don't know what's wrong with me recently.
The past floods my mind like a sea, and as the waves come crashing over me i dread that aftermath...
It's like I'm living two different lives, but they're secluded in my head...
They only rarely come out to have a look at what I really should be worried about.
I think they're trying to break me down.
Burn me.
Letting the ashes fly in the air.
As they land on others and slowly spread like wild fire.
But, the thing is, nobody is close enough to catch the sparks.
And as I'm set aflame, I dance around trying to put it out and everyone runs in opposite directions.
No help is given.
No water on my flames.
Just the breeze that catches the flames and sets me aroaring more.
The bigger the flame, the more I can't here myself think.
I'm sorting it all out but as i do that more things come into my head.
Like as soon as i clear out one patch of the fire, another reason attaches itself and catches.
I just want to jump in a pool of water and let it die.
but if i do that, so do i.
I just have no idea how to let the flame die without it taking me with it.
Somebody help me.

~KristyLeigh

Am I Crazy?

Am I crazy for these thoughts that flood my mind recently?
Is it wrong to think these thoughts?
I want them to bury themselves so i don't have to beat myself over them.
Every detail is still so perfect in my mind. 
I can't stop them and i feel like it will never stop. 
Clarity isn't a problem, god knows it isnt, I just want it all to stop.
You left me and yet, you haunt me. 
I find myself dreaming of you like you are always on my mind, but honestly, i never really think of you. 
Can you just leave me alone? 
Delete yourself from my memory, or is that too much to ask?!
I feel so calm without you in my mind, i have someone else that wants it all to him-self, but blind to the thoughts of you that run around my mind.
I just want it to stop, buffer and cancel. 
Sometimes, I let myself go too far with it, feeling all the emotions that came with the memories.
The feelings themselves create shivers that run up and down my spine, my eyes close and the images play back behind my eyes picture by picture. 
Clips that don't stop til my eyes re-open. 
But what i really want to know is, does this happen to you?
Does my face appear in your dreams, and with the sight, shake you and make you gasp for air as you wake out of a deep sleep?
Does the emotions we felt no so long ago kill you as they feel more real by the second with the memories?
Can't you just say Hello?
Message me, text me, or just call. 
Just to say hello, i miss you, or I remember when.......?
Please just remember me when things are tough and you have nobody to talk to and only my voice talks to you in your head....
Sincerely,
Your Summer Love